I know I’ve been out the last few days and that wasn’t like me. I like to blog as frequently as I can. Practically speaking, I can’t simply pump out fresh content on a daily basis for the rest of my life. There may come a time where I don’t need to blog anymore. Maybe I’ll find a valuable income stream elsewhere. If/when that time comes, it won’t be a big deal. I mean, I’ve already spent a good portion of my time writing and sharing my thoughts with a global audience, no? That alone should beget a feeling of pride and accomplishment.
But this past week was a bit different, I’m not going to lie. I found myself struggling to find the motivation to do things. And things got quite a bit dark. I suppose this is par for the course for whatever endeavor you choose in life.
It made me think of a video that PewDiePie did after getting back from Los Angeles, shooting for his TV show (Scare PewDiePie) in 2016. From the looks of it, he didn’t have a good week. He started a new vlogging initiative for his channel that didn’t pan out the way he wanted. In the last video he did in LA, he looked like he wanted to go crawl in a hole where he couldn’t be bothered. I know that feeling myself, man. It’s crippling as hell.
In the video he shot after arriving back home, he talked about his favorite tattoo (the one on his right forearm of Astro Boy looking defeated). PewDiePie went on to explain that we typically see Astro Boy in a position of triumph, with his fist to the sky. Smiling.
This tattoo carries a great deal of emotional weight for him. His tattoo shows Astro with his hand on his face, in shame. It’s okay if we find ourselves in a position that people aren’t used to seeing. We’re only human, after all.
But that, too, shall pass. Darkness can’t last forever, because it’s in the nature of the Sun to rise in the morning. If you need to get some toxic thoughts out, you can always use the TalkLife app. Just type in whatever thoughts are troubling you (you can be anonymous) and someone will show up to talk you through it. It really helps. A lot.
Today, some light showed itself. I released a new video on YouTube, talking about the most important book I’ve ever read. Go ahead and watch it. The title of the secret book may suprise you. 🙂
I haven’t released a podcast in quite some time. I’ll need to get to that. Sorry, it’s sometimes useful to use this blog as a checklist for what I need to do. Putting it in writing form helps a ton.
I haven’t been as productive as I want to be. That’s probably why I’ve been so down in the dumps. We’re in the Corona pandemic, and this’ll be the best time of our lives to devote to content creation and writing. I feel like I haven’t been making the most of this. Maybe this is part of the process? Maybe it isn’t reasonable to grind 12 hours a day? Can that really be done, though? Working nonstop for 12 hours a day? My god, that’s suicide.
So here I am, rambling. Am I getting my writing mojo back? I’m just snapping out of it. If you find yourself in a funk, just snap out of it. That’s what I’m doing, man. Snapping the fuck out of it.
Like Astro Boy, we won’t be at our best all the time. And that’s just fine and dandy. 🙂