Yesterday, I was watching YouTuber Lana Blakely’s video about confidence and how we can develop it internally. Too often people focus on projecting confidence externally, to the point they’re faking it.

What good is that, really?

Genuine Confidence

If you could develop internal confidence, won’t the rest take care of itself? If you feel genuine internal confidence, won’t you also exude confidence without thinking of it?

What’s the point in faking something if you don’t actually feel it? That mask can stay on for so long.

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At the time of this writing, my comment on Lana’s video was the most-liked:

“Confidence is gained as you get older. You learn more about yourself and what you’re meant to do. You become okay with your shortcomings and weaknesses because they show you what your strengths are.”

– The Great Lord Corey Toomey the First

Strengthened by Life’s Journey

You can’t cultivate genuine, unbreakable confidence without going through life’s journey. Going through hardships will teach you what you’re made of.

You need to learn what kind of person you are and what you’re meant to do. Once that moment comes, you will not care about your personal shortcomings anymore.

Why should you? Your strengths are good enough!

Mark Twain once said, “The two most important days of your life are the day you’re born and the day you find out why.”

What Shape Are You?

I believe it’s apt to use a more simplistic metaphor for the purpose of this blog (and explain the weird title).

Think of shapes: squares, triangles, and circles.

All of us are born either a square, triangle, or circle. That part of us cannot change. You will always be either a square, triangle, or circle.

With me so far? Okay, so here’s why a lot of people lag behind in life: they try to be a shape that they’re not.

I’ve seen squares try to fit themselves through round or triangular-shaped holes (wow. this is unintentionally sliding into erotica, holy hell).

Where Do You Fit?

Obviously, squares can’t fit through holes that are not shaped like squares. When they get stuck, they start to question their worth. They start to get depressed.

Instead of finding a hole they can fit through, they stare at the round hole so long they get swept into an emotional black hole, never to be seen again.

Hip to Be a College Square

Let me tell you a story about yours truly: Like a lot of people, I was once a college student.

College is the time of opportunities. You can learn about yourself by becoming part of clubs and so on.

Well, one time I tried out for Student Government.

I volunteered for a special kind of election where candiates are selected by the SG reps themselves. All the candiates had to do was make an elevator pitch to them, and explain their platform.

I thought that being in a position of influence on campus would be great for my personal development.

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So without delving into it too much, I can tell you that my elevator pitch was god-awful, forced, and awkward.

I remember standing in front of 20 different student reps and the looks on their faces as I stumbled through my speech. Needless to say, I was rejected.

That’s fine. Life goes on.

What Shape Am I?

By trying out for Student Government, I was a square trying to fit through a round hole. I’m just not the interacting type. I don’t have what you call a “silver tongue,” which is what you need to get into politics.

Sure, I embarrassed myself but I learned what I needed to learn. From that experience, I learned I’m an introvert and no matter how hard I try to hide that, people will see right through it.

As the years went on, I tried fitting through different holes to see where I fit.

Eventually, I realized I belong in content creation. I like to keep to myself and use my creativity more often than the average person does. And you know what? That’s where my confidence is blooming from.

And it feels freaking great.

I’m Corey Toomey. I’m a square! And I found my square-shaped hole! Time to slide in! 😀

So, am I making myself clear here? And could we like, do away with the shape analogies? I mean, I’m talking about holes, what shapes they are, and sliding through said holes.

It’s just getting weird.

Yeah, Let’s Just Wrap this Up…

So there you have it, folks! If you want to be confident, you need to find out what you are and what you’re not.

You need to find something that comes naturally and is comfortable for you. If you try to be something you’re not, people will see through your facade and no one is going to validate you.

Go through as many experiences as you can and prepare for setbacks. Through those setbacks, you will learn what you’re meant for.

Lose yourself before you find yourself.

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